Hump Day

So, here it is Wednesday and I feel completely unaccomplished.

I've spent almost a week now trying to find someone to play the piano for me for my OES installation on the 24th to no avail. My boss has been outta town for the last few days so (luckily) no work piled up on my desk in the mornings.

On a much brighter note, Emmett hasn't been sick since Saturday. And my mom got him on the waiting list for First Baptist Daycare. I can't wait for him to be going to a REAL daycare that doesn't let their employees (ie my sitters daughters) come in sick, and I know that he'll learn something each day, AND they'll put forth more effort in helping me get him potty trained. I would love it if he were potty trained by summer.......crossing my fingers on that one.

Mom and I are planning to head down to grandma's to finish what we started 2 weeks ago, with no warning to the triffling pair that live there. It sure seems like that if they have any kind of heads up they haul ass outta there before we get to the house cause they know they piss us off and don't want to hear it when someone tells them to get off their no-working-lazy-bitching asses.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a good and productive day.

Keep your heads up tough girls.

<3 T

A little upset

I hate that I'm related to someone that thinks life owes him something and that he should have everything handed to him.

He's never had to actually work for anything he has. The job he has, his momma got him. He makes enough money to support himself and his wife and kid, but can't seem to pay his GRANDMOTHER $40 a month for rent cause they live in her house. All of his money is used for beer, weed, and anything else he wants.... but never rent.

His wife only works two days a week, and yet for some reason I have to go to my grandmother's house today to do what THEY were asked to do almost a week ago.

And the venting continues, sorry so angry lately. Hopefully things turn around soon.

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Rly?

Sometimes, some people just can't let other people have a nice time. I'm not entirely sure why. It's almost like it would physically hurt them. Then they drag their bitching, and hypercriticisim on FOREVER. There are things I have no control over and other people's thoughts has got to be the number one with the weather coming in a close second. Why does it bother you that I fell hard and fast for someone, why can't you just be happy for me, hell at least pretend. That's all for today so good night.

Thanks for letting me vent.

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Opinions

So, it's true, opinions are like belly buttons everyone has one. I'm just tired of everyone thinking that I'm supposed to take theirs into consideration in my everyday life. Honestly, I've finally gotten to the point that the only person whose opinion I should be listening to is my own.

Everyone seems to know what's best for me. I want you all to listen when I say this.........I'm a big girl, I can make my own decisions/mistakes. But in all honesty, this isn't a mistake. It is by far the exact opposite, it's the best thing that's ever happened to me.

This is the absolute happiest I've been in the last 8 years, so what does that tell you? It should tell you that if I trust me and my choice, then so should you. I'm fully aware that I'm no longer the only person I have to think about in life. I know that I'm responsible for a whole other human being and his well being. I wouldn't EVER put my son in harms way, so trust that I know he's innocent of anything that she's said he's done.

I love him, and that above all else should tell you something. You saw it yourselves, when the people that I thought were my close friends didn't even show up to wish my son a happy birthday, he did. He was there until the wee hours of the morning with me getting things ready and he was back the next day to support me and be there for me. He love that little boy as much as I do, and possibly even more than he loves me. I couldn't ask for someone better to have around my son.

Now....keep your opinions to yourself from now on, because you know that all they're going to do is make me angry and push me away. When I say I'm going to take my son and leave, I'm not threatening you, I'm going to do it. And it'll probably be sooner than you want me to. But when you threaten to take MY son from me.....I'll fight you with everything in my being. You have no grounds, nor do you have justification enough for a court as to why he shouldn't be with me. You will never in your life be able to say that I'm an unfit mother and you know it, so don't even try.

You are and always will be my family, so PLEASE don't make me do something that we all will regret later on down the road.


I love you, and always will, just let me be happy.

<3 T